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Name: Anuradha
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Monday, April 03, 2006

I can still afford to walk out of the house with absolutely no cash in hand. Only because they are there with me.

 

I don’t feel guilty about eating at an expensive restaurant. After all, it’s my 50 yr old dad who’s splurging…not me!

 

Even though I’ve started earning, I continue to get a cozy allowance. Not only that, I get to save my hard-earned cash.

 

Someone’s taking care of my laundry, lunch, health. Phone bills, electricity…. I’m all paid for.

 

I walk in to find a table laid with dinner waiting for me. Sometimes they stay awake to welcome me after a hard day’s work.

 

I’m one of the few girls who get to take the car out for late-night parties because it’s safer than depending on a drunk/sleepy driver or a potential rapist to drop me home.

 

And now when I’m at my worst health, it’s they who stand by me and refuse to have me admitted in a hospital. With full confidence in themselves, they take charge of reviving their ailing child by embracing sleepless nights. How else could I have come out of this so fast?

 

You might point out how pampered I sound. But is that the right word. I’ve spent 20 years of my life rebelling against them. I’ve spent my entire childhood longing to be in a hostel far away from here. I’ve felt ashamed at accepting money from them. I’ve cursed them in my head after every fight. I’ve had deadline issues. Have backed out of family functions. I’ve back-answered, argued, thrown tantrums…. Its all been done.

 

Things are still the same. But someone has changed. Me. And so have they. Yes we’ve had our family dramas. Yes I’ve spent days tending to sick family members while managing to cram up for exams. And I have cried to see them hurt. I have prayed for them. I’ve bought them gifts. I have accepted their flaws. We’re a family now. We may not be happy with who we really are…but we always find someone who believes in us. Someone who cares what becomes of us. We stick up for each other.

 

It’s taken me 20 years. How can I give up all of that?? For once the grass is green on this side. The investments - paid off. And yet someday I’ll move on. Leaving all of this behind.

 

And when I look back, my eyes wont find them. For they’ll have moved on too.

 

Currently Listening
Forty Seasons: The Best of Skid Row
By Skid Row
I remember you
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

AMADEUS

I will speak for you to God. I will speak for all the mediocrities in the world. I am their champion. I am their patron saint. Mediocrities everywhere...I absolve you.

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Mozart: The Great Piano Concertos, Vol. 1
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Friday, January 20, 2006

A little girl

And a lost soul

The broken lamp

A swollen hand

The raindrops

Lashing her face

The cruel wind

Stalking her pace

She wishes

It were night all day

She wonders

If darkness could hide her away

Currently Listening
Minds Eye
By Wolfmother
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Friday, September 16, 2005

What if life was only a game?

With an escape button at every dead end

The problems could take care of themselves

And we could all go on unimpaired…

 

What if there were instruction manuals

With all the feed before we stepped in

On how to survive, how to win

Who to follow, whom to kill

 

But it had to be more deadly than that

Just dumped on earth, we find our own way

Every decision may throw us off the map

Every move could mean a suicidal fray

 

Spirituality infused with blind faith

Mediocrity is the order of the day

Ever lost in endless confusion

Harbouring a meaningless existence

 

Emerge then as distraught souls

Leaving rotten carcasses to be disposed

We live because we have no say

One decision we never had to make.

 

 

Currently Listening
Amnesiac
By Radiohead
Like Spinning Plates
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

A plain summer afternoon

I met indifference in person

Filled with people a room

Is where he stood in oblivion

 

Every soul seemed so absorbed

In an endless song of apathy

Nobody noticed I had entered

Not one could hear my pleas

 

And I wondered what was wrong

Was the problem they or I?

My agony, my misery prolonged

No one noticed but for time!

 

As I still ponder over the years

If they were at fault or I

Did the screams fall on deaf ears?

Or voiceless did I cry?

 

Looking at the room filled with ennui

Consoling myself, mopped the tears

Spent the evening quietly, ensuing   

Slowly in time overcame my fears

 

As the night crept in on lonely corners

It was as if the zombies awoke to life

No shadow could be bigger

Than their own entity, their own spite

 

And I wondered what was wrong

Was the problem they or I?

For I could hear their loud moans

But felt not moved by the sorry sight

 

As I still ponder over the years

If they were at fault or I

Did their grief merely not steer

My heart now of stone, dead did I lie?

 

No one knows how or why

The world stood watching

And life passed me by

As I became them...

They became I.

Currently Listening
The Wall (Deluxe Packaging Digitally Remastered)
By Pink Floyd
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